We have been together for 7 years.we just broke up and I started dating a new guy. He founded out about the new guy and a few days later he pushed me on the bed and said you gave it to him your going to give it to me. He took off my clothes n I was fighting him while saying stop what are you doing. I kept thinking he must dont think I'm serious. So I said I'm serious stop it I don't want to have sex. I told him over n over to stop. He told me his penis wasn't in yet so it's not rape. So I said once it goes in then it is rape. He kept trying to kiss me and I was crying. Our daughter was in the other room do when he told me to stop fighting him I thought of my daughter. I didn't scream because she was sleep in her room. I was worried that this would get worst. He put his penis in and when I said do now your raping me he just kept going. Then he said if you don't want to do this then try to get up. I tried and he pushed me back on the bed. I told him to stop and finally he did. Afterwards he was crying and he said sorry. He said he was going to call the police because he raped me and he should've in jail. He told me he was going to leave town because he was scard I was going to call the police on him. He asked if we would ever get back together and because I was so scard I said yes because I thought he was about to snap. I took me so long to understand what he did was rape, be auss he said he was trying to get me in the mood. He thought I would want to at some point. So I told myself it wasn't rape. Then I would say you told him it was and he kept going. Now he tells me it was t rape and he is sorry. He to me he didn't want me to hate him. He told me he wants us together again. I would have never thought he would do such a thing. So it is hard to believe this happened to me. I'm working on healing so I can get over this feeling.