Aphrodite Wounded: Marital Rape Stories

Here are stories from women who have experienced rape in marriage.
If you are a survivor of partner rape, I hope you find validation reading these stories.
Please keep yourself safe as you read - if you have not already read the section containing advice about reading the stories, please go here to find it.
If you would like to submit your story, you may do so here.

Here is a list of the stories. You can click on a woman's name to go to her story, or alternatively you can go here to browse stories in sequence.

Adi's Story ("Its 5 months and the hurt is not healing")
Alana's Story ("I have now left that sick vile man I can't believe I fell for him.")
Algea's Story ("This event just happened 5 days ago. Am I surviving? Each day I get worse.")
Ali's Story ("I have been intoxicated or asleep and found my husband on top of me performing a sexual act")
Amber's Story ("Its been three years since I divorced him ans I still cry at least three times a week.")
Angel's Story ("I hv to do dis evry nite... ")
Anne's Story ("I knew exactly what was going to happen whether I consented or not.")
Anon-Still Suffering's Story ("i just cant tell anyone because i don't want to betray him.It may be hard to understand but i love him.")
Anonymous's Story ("He started to rape me, with hard and violent movements he pushed so hard. But my body betrayed me..")
C's Story ("He wanted me to agree to have sex however and whenever he wanted or else he would go back to looking at porn").
Carz's Story ("I do not expect to heal overnight. But I know I can now. And I am proud to call myself a survivor.")
Chrissy's Story ("I have been asked on dates, I am smart, well educated and I am stuck in my own hell")
D's Story ("I was ashamed, i swept my own dirty secrets under the rug and worked like crazy to assist victims to escape, and stay strong.")
Debby's Story ("However, even thought nothing has happened, I KNOW that I did report him. That counts towards moving on in my life.")
Ebby's Story ("When did it become ok to just walk in a room and lift up my skirt and have sex with me without me even agreeing?")
Elle's Story ("he always says its because he "loves" me...to me love involves respecting and listening to the other person")
Francis' Story ("I hate him. I wish I never married him")
Froggie1's Story ("He kicked me in the stomach while I was pregnant with our son, grabbed me, raped me, stomped along my spine")
Harper's Story ("often i'm made to sleep with his business associates... he threatens to rape my younger sister if i won't co-operate....")
Holly's Story (" I want help -real help and someone just to believe me. I'm tired and I know when I run he'll come looking")
Jamie's Story ("He told me that he was entitled to a "birthday fuck")
Jane's Story ("I felt a lot of anger coming at me, and also the attitude, that he wanted to show me who was in control.")
Jennifer's Story ("Tell me should I love him or hate him? .")
Joyce's Story ("There is a such thing as MARITAL RAPE!". It was the first time that I really wanted someone to hear me, to believe me.")
K's Story ("This counselor listened to his side of the story and told him that his sexual desires were normal, and that I was too controlling").
Karen's Story ("It never crossed his mind that I refused sex largely BECAUSE of his mistreatment of myself and his son.")
Kate's Story ("I fought him all the way and got those words I hated "it's ok we are married"!!!")
Katrina's Story ("He was my knight in shining armour. I was 19 trying to escape a family life of violence and incest.").
Kayjo's Story ("Knowing now that I was used and abused by him, I am glad I found the courage to leave him.")
Ladybuglover's Story ("It took my then two year old son to wake me to the reality that he was a monster')
LelaniSol's Story ("I couldn't believe my husband could do such a thing to me. He didn't even notice that I was crying.")
Liberty's Story ("He thrusts really hard like he is trying to teach me a lesson.")
Lila's Story ("What I'm sharing is the letter which I plan to mail to my ex-therapist's boss and a copy to her.")
Lilly's Story ("I'm so hurt right now. I'm overwhelmed by sadness and the feeling that I've been betrayed.")
M's Story ( "I convinced myself that he hadn't heard me when I had asked him to wait, that he would never have sex with me against my will.")
Marie's Story ( "I felt so violated. Not to mention the fact that I didn't feel I could ever trust him again.")
Marissa's Story ( "I have a hard time looking at my own child who I love more than anything...he looks like the monster from my nightmares.")
MNSJF1968's Story ( "He turned me around and penetrated me anally... I couldn't cry out louder -the boys were sleeping in the other room.")
Morgan's Story ("The one person I was suppose to trust and knew what happened to me as a child had done the worst thing possible")
Mya's Story ( "He still gets mad, still gets jealous, but now I have 2 kids and no where to go.")
No-one's Story ( "He woke me up from my sleep by ripping my nightgown off me. I was about 8 months pregnant with my second child.")
Pam's Story ( " I don't trust men. 2 years after my husband left I was still, down deep, his prisoner.")
Punky's Story ( "No, I don't know if sexual coercion is a form of rape, but I do know it is wrong. I am forever scarred from it.")
Sally's Story ("Maybe one day I will finally be free of it all but till then I am going to keep on surviving and trying. It's not easy, but I'm trying.")
Sarg's Story ("The courts during that era never looked upon rape, as myself being a victim but as being guilty.")
Seema's Story ("being indian and from conservative family and culture its just not easy where girls are thought to be submissive no matter whether she likes it or no ")
Shabnum's Story ("I know for definite he raped me first at his mothers. Our entire family was there....")
Shunda's Story ("My husband was my everything and he betrayed me in such a horrible way.")
Special's Story (" I asked him why he forced himself on me he said he was giving what I wanted to this day that blows my mind.")
Suzie's Story (" I was raped – physically mentally and emotionally by someone whom I loved deeply. This man hurt the core of my being.")