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Rachel's Story
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I had known Leo for 3 years before we started dating. He'd always had a thing for me. He frequently told me that he loved me and continously asked me out. I always told him I loved him as a friend. However at the end of year 9 my feelings changed and I decied to give him a go. Leo was always loveing and caring but once we decieded to go futher (not sex but just experiement a little) he would sulk if he wasn't satisfied on a regular baises. I would say I didn't want to but eventualy just gave in beacuse I didn't want him to sulk anymore. I also didnt' want to hurt his feelings. After about a year things changed even more. He would flirt with other girls and try and feel them up. My friends would tell me about this when he didn't do it infront of me. On one ocassion he pushed Sandy against the car and felt up her breast. I would confront Leo about his behaviour but he would use larger words and confuse me. He made it out to be totaly different to how the truth was and I ended up staying with him. It got to the point where he would tell me what he would like me to wear and how he would like my hair. He told me he didn't like it if i wore lipstick and so I didn't wear it. I completly changed. One day he invited me over to his house for dinner. His parents were out and i thought I may aswell go over and try and save the relationship. I had sex with him. It was awful. After he had finished he said 'at least I didnt force you". Two days later he asked out my best freind Tanja. They had been very close for a while but I dont know if anything eventuated out of it. I broke up with him. It was really hard but my freinds were supportive. It was made harder though by my depression and anxiety resurfacing at the end of year 11. Months passed and nothing happened. In the Summer holidays however we got in contact and he we started seeing each other secretly again. I realised that it was wrong and wanted to end it. I told him and he said lets go to the movies on last time. I did. On the way back he stopped the car and he raped me. I don't need to go into details but I was so afraid that i froze. I couldn't scream but I tried shove him etc. After he was finished we sat there for a while. I got out of the car and started walking home. He ran after me and started to cry. He told me to get in the car repeatedly. I don't know why but I went back into the car and he drove me home. I have never spoken to him since. I went to the police station with Tanja to get an AVO. The police however didn't fully inform me of my rights and poorly worded my statement. I went to court but I was very unwell and I was offered an undertaking and I agreeed. I regret it everyday. I went back to school and I found out that Tanja was not only talking to Leo but was flirting and almost all over him. I found out later that they hooked up. We haven't spoken since. The worst part was though that Leo was still at school with me. He was in two of my classes. He would constantly stare at me watch me and observe me even at one stage taking photos of me. I informed the teacher reponsible but she did very little. Because of Leo I self-harmed, frequently took random pills, had panic attacks, dissasociative episodes, severe depression and i was suicidal. At one stage I was close to being admitted to hospital.  |
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