I was only 8 when he first raped me. I didn't know what was happening. I hadn't learnt about sex before.
When I was 8 my babysitter who was also my uncle used to come round to babysit me when my parents were out busy at work. My uncle was lovely to me then. He played games and let me eat cookies from the biscuit jar. But then he lost his beloved wife. My Aunty. He was very sad and cried all the time. My parents said he didn't have to babysit me if he didn't want to because of his loss. He insisted on looking after me. So that night when he came round to babysit me he played games with me and let me eat cookies as usual. When I told him I was sleepy he let me go to bed. I went to bed and fell asleep. At 2:40 am I woke up to the sound of him crying from the spare room. I climbed out of bed and went into the spare room. I tried to comfort him but he wouldn't stop crying. Eventually he stopped crying and asked if I would get into the spare bed with him so he'd feel better. So I did. I fell asleep again but when I woke up he asked me if I could cuddle with him. I said okay. But then he pulled up my nightie. His hot sweaty body was on top of mine. He'd pinned me down. He forced his penis into my tiny vagina. He pushed and pushed and pushed. The pain was unbelievable. I didn't know what he was doing to me. His penis was wet and felt huge. He humped my poor body for several hours. I tried to scream but then he shoved his penis into my mouth. A liquid was oozing out and my mouth was full of it. I felt sick. He wouldn't stop forcing himself into me. I started bleeding and I could hardly breath. Then he stopped humping me and he started to lick my vagina. He then started to suck it. It kind of felt good. He told me to feel and play his penis I refused so he threatened to kill my family. So I did it. I was still pinned down. He squeezed my boobs and humped again. Then he left the room. I heard him open the front door. Then I heard his car pull off the drive. I was left there on the bed. In pain. Hours later my parents found me sprawled across the bed naked bleeding. I told them about what happened. They were horrified. The police didn't find my uncle.
Years later when I was 16 I was walking home from school in the dark. There was a blackout and all the streetlights were off. I walked down the alleyway which was dark and scary. I saw a figure moving at the end of the alleyway. He stared at me. A streetlight suddenly flickered on and I caught a glimpse of his face. I could have sworn it was my uncle. He ran away and I never saw him again.