SURVIVORS SHARE ACCOUNTS OF TEEN PARTNER RAPE
I get numerous accounts of rape from young teenage girls. Whether your story is about partner rape or not, I am incredibly concerned about the dreadful situations you face, and because the story forms don't contain email, I can't return contact. Some of you have never told anybody. Please, if you are a young teenage girl - whatever has happened, see this page and reach out to somebody for help. If you like, you can read my story about being an abused teenager here - please know that with the right support, the way you feel won't last forever xx
It's hard to write a story about everything that happened to me because I still haven't managed to tell anyone aloud. I'm trying, and am using this as a stepping stone. Before I started dating Wade, I was in an abusive relationship. I confided in Wade, and he gave me the strength to get out. As time passed, we began to fall "in love." Things with him were going extremely well. He was so smart, handsome, and was really good to me. But after awhile, he started flirting with other girls and putting me down when I told him to stop. One day Wade and I were fighting. He wouldn't stop calling other girls when he and I were together, but I made exceptions for him because he helped me out of my abusive relationship. He was driving me home, and came inside because both of my parents were at work. I told him I didn't want to go upstairs and he should go home, but he yelled at me and told me to go upstairs to my room. I sat on my bed and he came in and told me to undress. Then with no warning he laid on top of me and went inside of me. I cried and wailed from the pain (I was a virgin) and he didn't stop. This continued for several minutes, and he finally pulled out of me before he finished. He saw me crying and told me to "stop blubbering" and said, "I essentially raped you. But you have no evidence." He planned this all along. I felt more betrayal than I ever had felt in my whole life. He tried to apologize for it later, and I told him it was OK because I was afraid he'd hurt me. But even then it didn't matter, because it happened again and again after he told me he wouldn't do it anymore. Eventually I finally got the strength to break up with him. He cheated on me with 5 other girls and told me it was my fault that he did what he did to me because I didn't love him enough. This all happened when I was 15 years old. I went through so many other things that year, including the suicide of my best friend (which Wade blamed me for), that I tried to repress it all. I am a college student now and did not let my past defeat me. And I know now that I need to tell my sister, because not everyone you trust will take advantage of you. To anyone out there in a situation like I was, please tell someone sooner rather than later, because I'm not proud of my past, but I'm finally starting to turn things around.