SURVIVORS SHARE ACCOUNTS OF TEEN PARTNER RAPE
I get numerous accounts of rape from young teenage girls. Whether your story is about partner rape or not, I am incredibly concerned about the dreadful situations you face, and because the story forms don't contain email, I can't return contact. Some of you have never told anybody. Please, if you are a young teenage girl - whatever has happened, see this page and reach out to somebody for help. If you like, you can read my story about being an abused teenager here - please know that with the right support, the way you feel won't last forever xx
The past five years have seemed like an eternity of silence. I was too ashamed to tell anyone about what happened to me for the first four. But the secret ate at me until I burst in tears of anger, rage, sadness, frustration, and finally hope about a year ago. One night completely changed my life.
I was sixteen and a virgin at the time. My ex boyfriend and I happen to be at the same Homecoming after party that night. We had broken about a month before and I was trying to make him jealous I guess by drinking and talking to other guys. Before I knew it it as 3 in the morning and I was the only girl at this party. The other guys were trying to kiss me but I hardly remember. I took a drink and past out on the floor. The next thing I knew my ex was on top of me and raping me hard..that's all I remembered for four years. A year ago it all came back to me. He caried me down to the basement, ripped off my pants and with anger, started raping me. I finally became coherant enough to start saying NO, but nothing happeded. He didn't stop. When he finally did, he sat up over me and looked at me with fear and anger in his eyes. He knew what he was doing. There was blood over his penis because I was a virgin so he ran upstairs to the bathroom. I laid there for awhile and cried. Then I went upstairs to talk to him. I was histarical. I didn't really know what had just happened..how could it be rape when it was someone I once dated? He couldn't have done that to me..right? Everyone at school asked me about it..if he raped me. I wouldn't answer. For years I never answered the question because I didn't know the entire story. That wasn't even the worst part..the next couple years were like a bad dream consisting of binge drinking, drugs, cutting, becoming anorexic and bulemic. And I didn't know why. Until everything came back to me. I am a very heathy person now and finally know what my story is to share. I have told my friends what happened..but they already knew. I told my boyfriend of the past seven months what happened and that cleared up my behavior and flashbacks that I some times get when we are together. I have seen a councelor and now we are going to see a councelor together.
I was sixteen at the time and am currently 22. No matter how much time passes there is no deadline for healing. I am currently in the healing process and hope that my story will help others. What happens to us is not our fault..my prayers are with all survivors. ~Danielle